Thinking about blogging about this i thought about whether to write or not. Then i remembered this is my space to write.
You see we all have skeletons in closet, and yes i have many. But i am not standing for public office nor seeking power. i may not have proper education but i have life experience, this wont help me get a cushy top paying job, but it make me survive.
I was abused by both my parents from at least the age of 6, My Father abused me sexually, my Mother turned a blind eye then allowed others to have there turn. You saw in earlier post i run away to central London, well this is why.
I will not go into graphic details as this blog will be too long.
Whenever my mother went to church my father used to come into my bedroom and abuse me (it was that or getting shoved down stairs). I was not alone in this happening this to them. Before this ended i was then passed on to another relative and friends to be used at weekends for sex. I started to miss school, misbehave, cry all night, then one day i run away , i run as fast as i could, i didn't care if my feet hurt i ran , then ran and kept running till i found *safety*. in a brief day of safety i was ended up at a hostel in south London however they wouldn't accept me as i was under 16, i then i got directed to another hostel that i blagged into, was warm but never slept as was in a room with others, I was scared.
I was then told at this hostel to go and claim benefits, Being under 16 you cant, so then to the streets....
The streets were cold and scary, not paved with gold, i was alone and scared, i slept in doorsteps and whoever offered me a bed ( even if it meant sex), I went from hell into hell, i then started taking drugs to try and comfort the pain, it worked but not enough. I ended up with old men having forced sex on a nightly event ( even during the day), but i was so desperate for food and a roof that it didn't matter.
See i needed to survive, and that's what i did.
Hope you all had that choice.
(the next ten years slowly improved, another blogpost will come soon on this)